My mother is the only person to ever give me a diamond. Yet, even she kept taking it back. Once I put all the pieces of this story together it became a possibility to me that this praying mantis, this “Symbol of God”, this “Divine Messenger” could be my mother and she could very wellContinue reading “THE NECKLACE”


Being closer to death seems to be creating a synergy between my body and my awareness of the natural world. This is not uncommon with old people. I had to unfollow Madonna this morning on Instagram because the plastic quality of her face was starting to make me want to wretch. Such a Barbie conspiredContinue reading “Integrations”

No Filter • A DAY AT WHITTEMORE • Sat Sept 18th 6-8pm

Last spring I rediscovered my Canon SLR 35mm camera and rekindled my photography chops with @dotpaulo at #rvcc. I discovered that I loved photographing tree trunks face 2 face, eye to eye, skin to skin. Every tree became a new friend. Each presented differently depending on the season, the time of day and the weather.Continue reading “No Filter • A DAY AT WHITTEMORE • Sat Sept 18th 6-8pm”

Rescue the Princess

This morning I wondered, can a Pisces can actually put out a Leo’s Fire? I wondered this because a close and very dear acquaintance once told me that I should not be with a Pisces because water puts out fire. This statement has sat at the back of my head since she informed me ofContinue reading “Rescue the Princess”

May 1 – THAT

My Studio is OPEN. 11-5pm Saturday only. Send an email for an appointment. My CONTACT info is HERE Send a HEADS UP text before you walk up my staircase. WEAR A MASK !!! FRIDAY evening I will be interviewed live at HAM via by “The Large Glass”

Late night melancholy

Tonight is somewhat like that fateful night so many years ago when I realized that borrowing from Peter to pay Paul had run its course. Terrifying moment. When it comes – to make yet another biblical reference – it was a ‘Come to Jesus’ kinda moment. I am having another ‘Come to Jesus’ moment rightContinue reading “Late night melancholy”


Representation can mean so many things. When one is represented, one is validated. It is so awkward to represent yourself without the energy of the ego. The ego gives us some positive things. Mostly these things are related to survival and grit. Yet, the energy of the ego seems to hold the most power whenContinue reading “Representation”

more Beasts

An untamed feral nature lives just beneath the surface of the human animal.

Psych 101

Source: “Festinger’s (1957) cognitive dissonance theory suggests that we have an inner drive to hold all our attitudes and behavior in harmony and avoid disharmony (or dissonance). This is known as the principle of cognitive consistency. When there is an inconsistency between attitudes or behaviors (dissonance), something must change to eliminate the dissonance.” PracticallyContinue reading “Psych 101”

Getting a little bit better at this…

I bought a new microphone, a video light circle, getting jiggy with iMovie and I’ve been learning how to read with a little bit more emotion – sort of like singing. ! I think its getting a little bit better – thanks to a little bit to some friends….


Thinking about buying one? Click here. I am painting Bumble Bees because Barry and I have been living with a tribe, a nest, a colony of Bumble Bees this past summer. They have taken to living beneath the thresh-hold of our back door. I have written a short story. I hope you like it. BarryContinue reading “BUMBLES and BEES”

Miss Logan Street

A True Story written by Val Sivilli   narration, crown, sash and all of the notions : Chris Mundy banner and music : Val Sivilli VIEW ALL OF THE CRANKIES from ARTYARD’s FABULOUS EVENING!

A Righteous Old White Lady

“Nevermind if you think an angry black man is scary …  try dealing with an old white lady when her food order gets screwed up – now that’s scary.” Incorrectly recalled quote posted via Instagram, tagged to me, her mother, by my 25 year old daughter currently living and working in Philadelphia. When I getContinue reading “A Righteous Old White Lady”

Val Sivillli on view : 2/16 – 3/16 at RVCC Art Gallery !

Heejung Kim and Val Sivilli – RECENT WORKS: is on view at Raritan Valley Community College until March 16th 2018 at the RVCC ART GALLERY located in the COLLEGE CENTER  HERE for Map of basement of the COLLEGE CENTER where the Art Gallery is located. HERE for link to Interactive Campus map. HERE for aContinue reading “Val Sivillli on view : 2/16 – 3/16 at RVCC Art Gallery !”

Exhibiting at RVCC

Heejung Kim & Val Sivilli: Recent Work February 16 – March 16 Artists’ Talk: Fri., February 16th; 5:00-6:00 p.m. Reception: Fri., February 16th; 6:00-7:00 p.m.

Purge and Burn.

Destroying work via the flame can be incredibly cathartic. I have to admit, when I first considered destroying my work was a sour grapes kinda thing. Feeling all sorry for myself. So much Work.. so little interest… not thinking the work is valued in any way except for in my own head.. and I amContinue reading “Purge and Burn.”

“Re-Inventing the Arts in Hunterdon County.”

T.H.A.T. , The Hunterdon Art Tour completed its first year triumphantly! It seems that most of the visitors to our studios this year were other artists. At first this worried me, but I quickly realized how great that actually is.  As we create a stronger community, as we become cohesive, when we are able to easily workContinue reading ““Re-Inventing the Arts in Hunterdon County.””

VISITING ARTIST Val Sivilli shares insights at Del Val High School

Written by Rick Epstein Holland Township painter Val Sivilli and her inner beast were featured at this month’s installment of the Second Breakfast Visiting Artist Series on Friday. The series is held monthly in Sarah Ruppert’s art room during lunchtime, and students and staff are invited to attend. Lunch is BYO, but so far coffee and doughnutContinue reading “VISITING ARTIST Val Sivilli shares insights at Del Val High School”

Hunterdon FERN

This past weekend, on the Friday night before Christmas, a group of very energetic and bold wonderful artists put together a pop up exhibition at the Prallsville Mills in Stockton, NJ. It was filled with artists from the county and beyond. Just bring your work! A wonderful night, wonderful energy. Barry purchased this little pieceContinue reading “Hunterdon FERN”

Camouflaged Intention. 

They are murdering Canadian Geese. It happens every fall. Every October. With their tiny little brains beneath their Cabela’s camouflage hats that say “Make America Great Again” they hide like cowards in a camouflage boat under a camouflage tarp and aim their rifles at unsuspecting geese as the sun struggles to make it through theContinue reading “Camouflaged Intention. “

First Friday in Kensington

link to val’s gallery on shopify This Friday from 6-9,  Austin Henry Peer and Schuyler Burkeand Val Sivilli (me!) are showing our paintings at the Gryphon Cafe at 100 W. Oxford Street in Philadelphia. I’m not sure how long this show stays up,  but the show will be fully hung for Friday, Sept 2nd !  Come see thisContinue reading “First Friday in Kensington”

August 9-16 “Can you hear me now?”

This is the first complete week of “An American SideShow Spectacular” 57-58.  News Broadcasts are typed over the drawings. They are from the week August 9, my 57th birthday, to August 16. Having completed one week, my process is becoming a bit clearer. It seems I will probably need to be a week or so aheadContinue reading “August 9-16 “Can you hear me now?””


We are in an American Sideshow Spectacular.   BUY THIS PAINTING ! This is one of the Trigger Paintings.  “TRIGGER & GREEN APPLE” They are still wet, but will dry soon.  

Fig Tree Poem Book

The Fig Tree on 9th & Christian was just acquired by the Lafayette Library Special Collection!  YAY!    There are 3 original versions of this book.  Only 2 left!

The Scissors

Metropolitan Ave, Brooklyn hardware store, scissors, seamstress, sewing, Brooklyn memories

Living with Barry

LINK to LIVING WITH BARRY – BLOG So, I live with this guy. His name is Barry. He speaks his mind. Most of the time, he is totally entertaining, loving, generous, interesting, passionate .. all those good things a woman wants. Just sometimes, he makes me a little bit insane. Now that I have assignedContinue reading “Living with Barry”

wildness, in pieces, like a puzzle, kind of… OR Aretha and the Pope.

This wildness, this beast. These organized methods by which we investigate its secrets. They are like parts, pieces, kinda randomly referred to whenever it seems appropriate to refer to these parts. We look at this wildness. Then we create order. Order form the wildness. Order ABOUT the wildness. Just this idea of language trying toContinue reading “wildness, in pieces, like a puzzle, kind of… OR Aretha and the Pope.”

Wichita Falls in the Garden State

8/3/2015 If you ask, again, at the dinner table, why I don’t eat white flour, be prepared for a somewhat distasteful description of gastrointestinal malfunction. You have been warned. Mom is 84. Dad is 85. He has been in congenital heart failure for 12 years. Driving down to SMITHVILLE, to the housing development that luredContinue reading “Wichita Falls in the Garden State”

On second thought….

A sweet time was had by me and I hope by at least a few others at the artist reception that the SFA gallery hosted this past saturday evening for my painting show “Unpacking the Wild Beast.” I was corralled by a crazy italian man from long island, complimented by the most amazing and productiveContinue reading “On second thought….”


For Immediate Release: May 29th, 2015 John Schmidtberger Schmidtberger Fine Art Gallery 10 Bridge Street, Suite 7, Frenchtown, NJ 08825 908.268.1700 “UNPACKING THE WILD BEAST” OPENS IN FRENCHTOWN, NJ. Schmidtberger Fine Art Gallery in Frenchtown, NJ is pleased to announce the debut exhibit of local artist Val Sivilli “Unpacking The Wild Beast”. This showContinue reading ““UNPACKING THE WILD BEAST” OPENS IN FRENCHTOWN, NJ.”

Respecting ANGER  or the problem with not showing anger.

I want to believe that if someone is saying something nice and loving to me, it is not because they are trying to hide their anger. When you are pissed off at someone, you’re just pissed off. Many times, there is good reason for being pissed off. Most often than not, there exists a misunderstandingContinue reading “Respecting ANGER  or the problem with not showing anger.”

The Dreaded Artist Statement

The inside and the outside of the body, the inside and the outside of the mind –  a family, a neighborhood, a political system, and system of ideas – DNA. all of this and more. My work mines the connections, the frustrations, the definitions. Life redefines itself yet we always come back to who we are. WhoContinue reading “The Dreaded Artist Statement”

Praying to Saint Agnes

Yes, yes, I did that.  Because, well, shit, i was able to get some success with only tiny little paintings  – smaller studies –  to get all ready for the bigger paintings, well, I’ll tell ya, they got over controlled and just looked kinda dead and I got so frustrated……… So I went to the HarwoodContinue reading “Praying to Saint Agnes”

Off With Your Head!

They are cutting off the heads of people. Cutting off the heads of people and filming these people cutting off the heads of other people. They are feeling as if they need to cut off the heads of people and feeling as if they need to film the cutting off of the heads of people.Continue reading “Off With Your Head!”


Resume the placing of the mark on the field and the race began once again. It was the middle of the night and she wanted to go out for a walk but the moon would not cooperate. Everything that was visible is now unseen, unknown and full of the fear that night can sometimes bring.Continue reading “Morning”

Naming the Beast

Placed within academia, me, a common Long Island girl, a “normal” girl, as my first Lesbian, separatist art school roommate called me, I was tossed into the higher educational system without much preparation.. Without warning. ACADEMIA! This  “normal” girl had a very high regard for her “animal” self – her instinctual self. The person thatContinue reading “Naming the Beast”

Opening and closing the doors and windows a bit slower.

Part of being in another place is listening to the local public radio. Pure joy really. Except when you find yourself listening to Ravel’s Bolero. I just couldn’t help felling really sorry for the drum section. So repetitive. A bit of torture. But it’s the only station that comes in clearly, so I’ve been committedContinue reading “Opening and closing the doors and windows a bit slower.”


For the first time in over 2 weeks, I had a REAL nights sleep, FINALLY. I’ve been beyond tired. When I was 19 years old, I was determined to quit art school and move up to Woodstock, NY and become a potter. So, knowing nothing about how to actually do that, I drove up toContinue reading “UNLEARNING”


DNA .. Bloodlines … Ancestry … Naples .. Bari … When I went to Italy, I stood outside of a the Hotel Luna in Amalfi. I have been told that the Barbaro’s, my mothers family on my grandfathers side, owned and operated that Hotel. I walked inside. I was fully prepared to introduce myself. IContinue reading “DNA”

Crow mind.

Just as the full gravity of Abraham Verghese’s character Shiva, finds his life’s path in Cutting for Stone, and tears are streaming down my face and as I’m cutting stencils to change directions on the paintings that I have begun, I think of my good friend Fred, who loaned me the audio book. I thoughtContinue reading “Crow mind.”

Regret be dammed

Those moments these pondering of wishing Of wishing that it were different Be damned Those mind games of peeling apart the words that come out of my mouth Be damned Those self flaggelative mind fucks that feed the beast Be damned, be gone. Walk Walk


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